I dreamed of my beautiful english lab months before finding him at a pet store. He was amazing and we were bonded instantly. he never left my side and if i had to leave and couldnt take him he would jump on the kitchen table so he could watch out the window for my return. he was one loyal and smart, sneaky and protecttive. some may say a brat. anyways on March 19 2010 my Kelso at age 3 died while having a seizure at the vets er. losing him is like losing my child. its going to be 2 years and i cant let go the guilt. i know i did everything i could but i dont know what happened to him. and i am angry with god bc he took my baby boy from me. i need to end her for now i am getting to worked up rn...